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It's now become a habbit for me, to look up pictures of actresses of whom I think have perfect bodies, and stare in envy. I can't go walking really anymore. It's too cold. If I had a tredmill, I would be on it right now. Running. I hate running. But I might not hate it if I could do it every day and get used to it.

I hate this. Me and the friends hung out the other day. It was a perfect day, except for the fact that my mind was all on what the pictures were going to look like. Am I hiding my double chin well enough? Am I sucking in enough? Am I sitting up straight enough?

I hate the pictures. Not all of them, don't get me wrong. Just the ones with me in them. I am so happy with life and the way other people see me, but I just don't see what they see. I see someone TOTALLY different. And I know I do. I'm up to 160 now... in just a few weeks I've gained 6 pounds. I've been up and down since then but still; it's upseting.

This can't continue. I can't wait until I live with Mom again so we can change our diet together, and maybe walk together, or run if we feel up to it. I need to stop drinking sodas... completely.







Celebs who have awesome bodies:
ANGELINA JOLIE
JESSICA ALBA
JESSICA BEIL
KELLY CLARKSON
HAYDEN PANITTIERE
LINDSAY LOHAN(at her biggest)
JESSICA SIMPSON(pre-boob job)

the list goes on.

those are just a few.
I hate this.